Brain't

I have been trying to keep too many plates spinning of late. The ever-repeatable mistake of taking too much on, expecting too much of myself, and then feeling bad when I inevitably fall short.

All work and no play makes this weirdo want fun things.

And of course I'm highly distractible because my brain needs endorphins to live. Resulting on me forgetting a lot of otherwise important things. And panicking about the forgetting to the point where I get more stress makes brain want more endorphins. And I leave important things half done or not done and then someone starts using the word "senile" like a weapon...

Which does nothing to help, I might add.

So I am lured more away by the fun things because they are fun, and I don't do the other stuff because it's becoming a drag. And then some people blame me for that. All I need is an actual day off. Minimal expectations.

But if I give myself regular time off, I start thinking I should fill that with work-related shit.

Tomorrow, I am giving myself permission to phone it in. I'll see if that works.